Hate This

hey, everyone, this is aimee loeser again. i hate writing this!!! lisa called me and asked to update the blog so that everyone knows how today (Monday) went and the plan of action from here.

Jaxton had his 2nd CO2 test today. as you know, he had a similar test last week and did relatively well. that was not the case today. 😦 today, after being off the ventilator for 20 min they could tell things were not going as well as last time but were watching carefully, hoping things would get better. after 40 min into to test, jaxton started turning very pale which was a very clear sign that things were definitely wrong. the medical staff stopped the test after 40 min. in lisa’s words “today was the exact opposite from last week”.  jaxton has been uncomfortable and in some pain, so josh and lisa decided to “up” his pain medication and sedation.

there are so many things that jaxton has already overcome and done so well on. there are also several very big things that have not changed or gotten better. josh and lisa are now facing a very difficult decision! tonight at 6pm jessie (the awesome photographer) will go to the hospital to take more family photos. josh and lisa will spend time alone tomorrow with jaxton. it is breaking my heart to write this, but tomorrow, josh and lisa will hold jaxton and at some point turn off the machines that are keeping jaxton breathing and alive. jaxton will be sedated and will feel no pain.

i wish there was something else to be said, there are some many things running through my head, but nothing is right. i told lisa that i would do anything to reverse this for them…i am sure that is how you all feel. right now, all we can do is pray! pray that lisa and josh feel the love and comfort that only God can give! pray that they have peace tomorrow! pray for their time together as a family both tonight during pictures and tomorrow…that the time will be filled with only sweet memories! please pray that tomorrow, when it is time, that josh and lisa would not see jaxton struggling, that God would take him very calmly.

this all absolutely sucks to write…and i am so heartbroken. please join me in praying continuously for lisa, josh, jacob, and jaxton beginning now! thank you!!

2 Corinthians 1:3-7 “Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows. if we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer. And our hope for you is firm because we know that just as you share in our sufferings, so also you share in our comfort.”

28 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by April on March 7, 2011 at 3:21 pm

    Heartbroken for this beautiful family. I will not stop praying for you all! May God give you all the kind of comfort and peace that the human mind can not understand. Thank you, Lord, for this beautiful baby boy Jaxton and ALL of the love he has given to his Mommy and Daddy.


  2. I will be praying. Remember that in his very short life Jaxton has already shown the world that miracles DO happen. He’s reminded us that it’s important to let go of the petty differences, and focus on those we love. He’s had a very important life.

    I’ll be thinking of you all, and praying.


  3. My heart is broken for Jaxton and his family. I know the doctors weren’t expecting a lot for this little guy, but so many prayers helped him touch even more lives. May God provide the peace and comfort for everyone in the next few days, weeks, months, and years.


  4. Posted by Rebekah on March 7, 2011 at 3:26 pm

    I am so broken hearted right now. Praying for their family.


  5. Posted by Jess Moland on March 7, 2011 at 3:27 pm

    Josh and Lisa,
    My heart is breaking for you right now. I pray that tomorrow, you and Jaxton share the peace that passes all understanding.


  6. Posted by Karis on March 7, 2011 at 3:30 pm

    My heart breaks for this family that I’ve never even met. I’ve been watching all day for some kind of update on him, and now I’m sitting at my computer crying. Thank you for your choice of Scripture to add to this post, may that be true for this family.


  7. Posted by Laurie Chico on March 7, 2011 at 3:39 pm

    Our Father, Who art in Heaven,
    Hallowed be Thy Name.
    Thy Kingdom come,
    Thy Will be done,
    In Earth, as it is in Heaven.
    Give us this day our daily bread.
    And Forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors.
    Lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.
    For Thine is the Kingdom, the Power and the Glory…FOREVER. Amen.


  8. Posted by ChristyShinn on March 7, 2011 at 3:40 pm

    I am just heartbroken over this news! I just pray that God will wrap his arms around Jaxton and his family and comfort them during this time. I pray that they will find peace in knowing they will see their little angel again one day!!! Love in Christ!


  9. Posted by Crystal Smith on March 7, 2011 at 4:05 pm

    The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures and leads my beside quiet waters, he restores my soul. He guides me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever. Psalm 23 Comforting to recall the peace and comfort this must have brought to King David. Prayers of peace and comfort for your dear sweet family flooding the feet of our Lord.


  10. Posted by Tina K. on March 7, 2011 at 4:08 pm

    Josh and Lisa, please just know how much I love you guys and how hard I’ll be praying, for peace, for comfort and just groaning and crying out to the Holy Spirit to intercede on your behalf. Love, Tina K.


  11. Posted by Deborah Porter- Jones on March 7, 2011 at 4:08 pm

    I too am heart broken. I am at a loss of words right now. I just pray Gods everlasting Love, His peace that passes all understanding and His comfort beyond what man can give at this time be upon them in this difficult time.


  12. Posted by Alison Fleming on March 7, 2011 at 4:10 pm

    My heart is breaking for you all. I’ve been praying for you and will continue to pray. Sending so much love to you.


  13. Posted by Donna Ford on March 7, 2011 at 4:18 pm

    Dear Josh, Lisa, and family,
    Have prayed for all of you and baby Jaxton. All good parents share in your heartache, we feel your pain. My sincere hope is that you may look back on this time and smile, knowing that you’ll meet Jaxton again. Hope all the prayers and love you have received help to comfort you. Will always remember this little guy.


  14. Posted by Loretta Hindsley on March 7, 2011 at 4:24 pm

    Dear Heavenly Father, Please wrap your loving arms around this family. Please give them peace in know you are with them, holding them and loving them like know one else can do. Give them peace and understanding, guidance and strength. In Jesus Name I pray. Amen.


    • Posted by Mandy Allen on March 7, 2011 at 5:18 pm

      AMEN! I am agreeing with you right now for this Loretta. The Lord said when there are 2 or more in prayer he is in the midst. He has healed Jaxton. I hurt for Josh and Lisa but at the same time we have to realize we need to rejoice because Jaxton has made it home. God used him in a mighty way. He is a legacy and will forever be in our hearts! We may not know why but God sees things we dont see. I am just glad I have a God for all of us to be faithful to and pray to.


  15. Posted by Kristi on March 7, 2011 at 4:27 pm

    Love and prayers for God’s peace. The kind that passes all understanding.
    Lord, we don’t know why things are happening this way. We know that you are in this with all of the prayer warriors on Jaxton’s team, and it hurts you as much to see Josh and Lisa hurting as it does us. You understand better than we ever will. I will continue to praise you in the storm, as will many others. You Alone have made Jaxton and brought him here. Lord, love them through their pain. Give them your perfect peace. Amen.


  16. Posted by Mary Harris on March 7, 2011 at 4:40 pm

    Me and my chilrdren have been praying for this wonderful family from the first time i read this which was the day before this wonderful baby was brought in to this world my heart is just breaking to read this iam so very sorry that your family has to go thru this but always rember that we all have found this family to be very close and even tho we all arent family it seems that we all have come together and held our prayers and kept up with Jaxton and his mommy and daddy and big brother. Please god keep helping this family in all they have to decide for there presious child. love from the Harris (Essex) family


  17. I am praying for the Husmann family right now. I love you all!!!


  18. Posted by Tiffany on March 7, 2011 at 4:55 pm

    I am so heartbroken right now for them. There are no words. Praying.


  19. Posted by Samantha on March 7, 2011 at 5:00 pm

    I am in tears reading this post. My heart is breaking for you. I have continued to pray for your beautiful family and I will continue my prayers and I hope for peace and comfort during what will be a very difficult time for all of you. God does great things and just know that Jaxton will be very well taken care of and he will be one of God’s children. Jaxton will be your angel. I wish you all peace, to be surrounded by love, and to be comforted in the best way possible. God bless ALL of you. You have the WORLD praying for your family and what a remarkable imprint Jaxton has made on so many people in just a very small amount of time.


  20. Posted by Mandy Allen on March 7, 2011 at 5:15 pm

    I am so sorry to hear this. Here is some scripture to help you out. This is out of 2 Corinthians 1:3-5. Blessed be God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort, Who comforteth us in ALL our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God. For as the sufferings of Christ abound in us, so our consolation also aboundeth by Christ.

    Another one is from Romans 8:26-28 Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered. And he that searcheth the heaerts knoweth what is the mind of the Spirit, because he maketh intersession for the saints according to the will of God. And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them whoo are the called according to his purpose.

    You might not understand now why this is the will of God but he sees the future and he does things for our good. Either way I will pray for you guys. Your son has left a legacy in our hearts. I think he has done the will of God in just this short time of life. The Lord is with you both. Just dont give up on God. You may not see the light at the end of the tunnel right now but its not over. Jaxton’s life has just begun. He is going to see things and do things we could only imagine doing and seeing right now! We cannot fathom what he is going to see and do. I praise God for his healing. Yes he is healed. No more pain EVER, no tears, no fear, thats the best healing anyone can ever have. You both are wonderful and I will be here for you. If you need anything just leave me an email or whatever you feel like doing. God Bless!
    Heavenly Father touch Lisa, Josh, Jacob and the rest of the family. Lord send them your blessed Comforter in this time of need. Father give them guidance in your words and give them strenght to endure your love through their faith until the end. Josh, Lisa its not over! Just dont give up. Its not over. Life has just begun as we know it. My heart goes out to you both!


  21. Posted by Shelly King on March 7, 2011 at 5:16 pm

    I was cheering him on from day one & was so hoping for a different outcome. What a true blessing little Jaxton was, touching the lives of so many people from all over. Wishing you God’s peace in the days & weeks to come.


  22. Posted by Joni Sivey PFB on March 7, 2011 at 5:21 pm

    “Our hearts are restless until they rest in Thee, O Lord”
    – St. Augustine

    Praying you find rest.


  23. Lisa, Josh, Jake, and Jaxton,
    I am praying for the Lord to wrap you in His strong arms of love over this next day and in the coming months ahead….I remember those early days of loss… you will be on my heart tomorrow constantly. I am praying that the Lord blesses you with beautiful, special memories of your precious boy. Praying for Him to seal all the details of Jaxton in to your mind… I look at your pictures Lisa, and from one mama to another I understand the details of what the future holds for you if there Lord sees fit to heal Jaxton in Heaven and not on earth. I have to tell you, my heart breaks for you… Please know, I am here as a sister in Christ… gshintz@yahoo.com if you ever need another listening ear. ( I can always call you back if you would ever like to talk in person, I know that may sound crazy, but as a sister in Christ, I never want any mom to feel alone in her grief) I am so glad that you have Aimee and a suppportive family… you will need those who have walked the same journey at times to talk to.

    Lisa and Josh, please know, I am praying for a miracle healing for Jaxton still if that is God’s will… and yet praying for the Lord’s presence to be real and close as you walk through the next 24 hours… He will carry you…


  24. Posted by Kimberly Gunderson on March 7, 2011 at 5:24 pm

    Dear Josh and Lisa, we love the Husmann family. You never leave our thoughts and prayers. May you know how very loved you are through this heart breaking time. Jaxton has touched us all, and none of us will ever be the same for having known of his story. With our love, the Gundersons


  25. Posted by Debbie on March 7, 2011 at 5:25 pm

    Sobbing and praying. I am so so sorry. I love you guys.


  26. Posted by Stephanie Cooper on March 7, 2011 at 5:29 pm

    If The Lord is in the midst of 2 in prayer, his presence is tangible for all that are praying for the Husmann family. Lisa, Josh, Jacob and Jaxton, may the Lord be with you, wrap his arms around you, shelter you so that you may share this time together as a family and knit together beautiful memories you may cherish until you are with Jaxton again. And know that when you are ready to emerge, you are NOT alone, you have created such a community of people who love your family and will work to lift you up and provide solid ground upon which to stand


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: